Ever since some things happened, you changed unknowingly because I’m no longer someone whom you are proud of any more. You have forgotten how much I hated school but still works very hard to be one of the top students in school just because you promised that you will agree that if I do so, you will not stop me from perusing my dreams. I did and even got a certificate of merit which you are proud of and it’s being framed as a trophy sitting at one of the shelves in my room. When I talked about my dreams, you stopped me and told me to go university. I shattered. You got people to talk to me, etc. Since I’ve got companion. I went ahead.
I was not happy. You don’t understand. At least my friends and work keeps me going. I told you I wanted to stop schoolling. You flare up. You just won’t understand, or at least try to understand. But still, I deferred school to work.
I made a mistake. I felt worse enough, but you added more salt into my wound because I don’t listen to you, or every one’s opinion. You said you are like that. I don’t need you to broadcast my life to anyone. I need some privacy. I don’t care what others would say, but you?
So right now, it seems that I’m another devil in the house, mainly because I don’t listen to you in the first place. I’m mean and selfish because I don’t do this or that. How many times I have warn her nicely but she still go against my words. How many times I almost fell in the house just because of one little rascal’s doing and still I have to clean up her mess? You people are not at home most of the time, do I need to put up CCTVs around the house to show you what she has done? Just because her parents are divorced so we have to be understanding? Please, I don’t see a need to. I brought her up. I know her more than you all do. I will not shield her for wrongdoings like how you all did.
hey ying yin,
never, never, never let anyone define you.
you lead your life the way you want and need not prove to anybody anything.
what others have to say, is merely their opinion. it doesn’t carry much weight. their words may seem insensitive and hurting, but there’s nothing you can change.
you know, when a person has the same kind of attitude for years, it’s very hard to ask the person to change.
what you can change is your attitude towards those words. you can take it with a pinch of salt, or let it affect you greatly. you have a choice to choose how you want to react towards the matter.
you are not a puppet, but the string that holds it. you define yourself, your destiny.
what’s your dream? do you still remember what’s your dream? that very initial dream from the very beginning. i’m sure you do. have you achieved it? what are u going to do to achieve it? that’s what you should focus on..
girl, you are successful. never, never, never let anyone put you down in any way. you did well in your studies, you became a model, and now..a soon-to-be mummy. wow. you have achieved much.
…and i’m so proud of you.
love,
hanping
Hey Hanping,
Thanks for your words of advise. They are very motivating.
Yup. I’m taking this chance to take a step back to readjust my plans for the future. Even if my family is very against my multiple decisions (I have those plans because they “forced” me to) , I will still believe in my abilities and prove to them with my actions and forgive them for whatever negative comments which they kept slapping at me constantly. HAHA. Also, I have many friends like you who are there to give me support. I’m very much grateful enough!